If one word could describe 2014, TRANSITION would be it.
2014 was a year of transition and upheaval, laying the groundwork for what I cautiously believe is going to be the most transformative years of my life: 2015.
A year in which everything, and I do mean EVERYTHING will change. For a guy who has worked in the same job, lived in the same place, and lived the same life for 15 long years, to finally see the road swerve in a new direction is both exhilarating and terrifying at the same time.
There’s so much that weighs heavily on me. Will I be able to manage life outside of New York, a stranger in a strange land? Will I be able to take care of a dog I will soon get, something I’ve never done before? Will I be able to thrive in the private sector after having worked in government for so many years? Will a change of scenery give me a chance to meet new people and make new friends, and perhaps finally meet that special someone who has eluded me my whole life?
After 15 years, I finally have a chance now to spread my wings and soar. At the same time though, I’ve also become weary and older. That spark of energy and hope I used to have after I graduated college has long since fizzled. Sometimes I wonder if there really is a life left for me to live, now that so much of it is already behind me. Like a man freed from prison after so many years inside, in a warped way I’ve come to appreciate the comfort of the “prison” walls that have kept me here, rather than risk entering the life that goes on outside it.
But the wheels have been put in motion, and what God has set in motion no man can stop. All I can do now is wait and see where the road will soon take me.