I’m starting to feel a bit guilty for not blogging anything of length for what seems to be eons now, despite getting more traffic than ever. (Yay!) I’d like to change that, but I’m still resisting the urge to rant on some of the incredibly disturbing news and topics chronicling humanity’s decline in the past year, because once I start going down that rabbit hole, it’s really hard to stay positive after that.
I’m amazed at how some bloggers can perpetually churn out posts on the same depressing subjects nearly every day of the week, always existing it seems in a perpetual state of rage. There’s no lack of things to be angry about, especially with the world being the way it is, but while it makes for great fodder to keep a blog going, I’m not sure it’s worth what it must do to one’s health.
Right now my life is still in a state of limbo, so there hasn’t been much to say until the wheels start turning again, but thankfully I think things will get moving soon, and before I know it, the life I’ve lived for nearly 15 years is going to come to a dramatic end. Everything will change… hopefully for the better… FAR better.
When that time comes, I don’t wish to blog anymore: I wish to WRITE. What’s the difference between the two, you ask? Blogging to me seems too detached, too disruptive and incoherent as I stumble from one topic to another, trying to find my muse or something that will get my creative juices flowing. But writing? That’s about telling a story. Maybe a story others can relate to. Perhaps a tale that could some day be turned into a book. The kind of writing I’ve always wanted to do, but never really found my way in.
An idea is starting to form in my head: taking the incidents of everyday living and turning it into compelling stories. There’s something therapeutic about being able to express in words what previously only existed as turbulent thoughts knocking about my head. I found if I don’t provide myself an outlet for what I continually think about, I start to get anxious and a bit frustrated about life. I think writing will help that.
So, HOLD ON. It may not be long before I start blogg– *ahem* writing again with far more frequency.